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Have you heard about the life of Jephthah? Well, if not, you can see his life in the book of Judges. Jephthah is son of Gilead from a prostitute. Among the member of his father’s house, he was the least adored and he has experienced how to be forsaken.

Jephthah the Gileadite was a mighty warrior. His father was Gilead; his mother was a prostitute. Gilead’s wife also bore him sons, and when they were grown up, they drove Jephthah away. “You are not going to get any inheritance in our family,” they said, “because you are the son of another woman.” So Jephthah fled from his brothers and settled in the land of Tob, where a gang of scoundrels gathered around him and followed him.  Judges 11:1-3

Being a part of a broken past, still, God used his life to lead Israelites in fight against Ammon. Some reacted with disappointment as he made a rash vow with the Lord.

And Jephthah made a vow to the Lord: “If you give the Ammonites into my hands, whatever comes out of the door of my house to meet me when I return in triumph from the Ammonites will be the Lord’s, and I will sacrifice it as a burnt offering.” Judges 11:30-31

When Jephthah returned to his home in Mizpah, who should come out to meet him but his daughter, dancing to the sound of timbrels! She was an only child. Except for her he had neither son nor daughter. When he saw her, he tore his clothes and cried, “Oh no, my daughter! You have brought me down and I am devastated. I have made a vow to the Lord that I cannot break.” Judges 11:34-35

Some of us think, if he didn’t made a vow maybe his daughter need not to die, that his daughter might have able to experience to live longer and have able to enjoy life even more. It made us to conclude that in our lives, we must be careful in taking vows, specially making vows with the Lord. Aside from that conclusion, let’s go to the other point of the story and let me say, the rhema that was revealed to me with this story.

I have experienced in my life wherein I declared that I am willing to surrender my everything to Him because that was I really wanted and ready to do for me to experience Him even more, to be more closer to Him, to be with Him. And I think, that overwhelming experience was the same of what Jephthah felt. He is really willing to offer God anything He would wanted.

Having the thought that I have already surrendered everything, my all in all to Him, there comes the rejoicing over the triumph, until God pointed on something that is in me, something that is in my pocket, something that I never thought He would also wanted, my precious ones. Jephthah never expected that what God wanted for him to offer is his one and only daughter, his precious one. He mourned and I can see that it was really painful for him but then, he still offered it to the Lord. In our lives, we do have special ones (or can be more), it could be a habit, a person, a thing etc. which we would never expect God wanted us to give up to Him. It would be painful but then we are still guarantee of God’s blessing through obedience. After Jephthah submitted to what God wanted him to do, God granted him the victory over all his enemy until he died, he was even buried in his own town who once forsook him.

Jephthah led Israel six years. Then Jephthah the Gileadite died and was buried in a town in Gilead. Judges 12:7

If God ask you to give up this precious one of yours unexpectedly, are you also willing to surrender it to Him?



Prompt#3: In light of the nearing All Saints’ Day, I’d like to know what death means to you. How do you view death?

What comes to my mind everytime I’m hearing the word DEATH, is simply the absence of life. Before I become a Christian, I have no idea what is waiting for me the moment I reach that stage. What I’m thinking is, I don’t want to be placed in that box and I don’t wanna see my earthly body being moldy or rotten. But I need to accept the fact that I will surely come to that stage of life, the only difference is that now I am convinced that life doesn’t end there but just the  beginning of new life with God in His Kingdom.

Being a nurse, I’ve able to witness death so many times, able to see people suffer from pain, see people mourn. Death can really be painful for some, I can’t blame them but I think they should know more, that there’s gonna be more to life.

For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. -Philippians 1:21

Either to live or to die, we got nothing to lose because Jesus have already given us everything to gain. 

Prompt#2:  When have you felt forsaken the most? What did you cry out to the Lord that time?

As of now, I can’t remember any instances I felt forsaken by God, its just that I know that it’s always my fault not His why sometimes I feel so lonely, so left alone, so forsaken. What I know to myself is that sometimes (I don’t know if it’s included) I can’t stop myself from asking questions with a “why” beginning. I’m very clear to it that most of the time, it is because of my disobedience why I am being hurt.

Not too long ago when  I experienced heartbreak, felt forsaken by someone I love, I found comfort in His presence. Though being taken for granted most of the times, He’s still there for me, waiting for me to come back, willing to forgive my every fall over and over again. I cried out everything to Him, I told Him how so lonely, so sad, so disgusted, so tired, so broken I’m feeling was. No one can accept my drama thing as He is. That feeling of brokenness made me draw closer to Him, made me thirsty of His Words and made me long in His presence even more.

I will never leave you nor forsake you… Hebrews 13:5

I’m glad how this bible promise verse would automatically ring in my ear whenever I’m starting to feel lonely and sad (sometimes, maybe due to some hormonal changes). It feels good to know that no matter what happen, He will never leave. I find His love really comforting. I love the way He loves me.

Prompt#1: On any gift-giving occasion, what sort of gift (clothes? gadgets? toys? books?) do you always look forward to? Why?

Honestly speaking, my eyes sparks whenever I hear something about gift-giving. I love gifts, knowing also that my primary love language is gift giving, and that’s how I express my love to others and how I feel loved by others. I’m not being materialistic, it’s just that I appreciate every little thing even if it’s just a simple letter or a little keychain.

Below is the list of gifts I love to receive the most in any occasion

a self-made photo album – I appreciate it the most whenever someone put an effort to make me happy. Though digital photo albums are the one that is so popular today, still for me nothing can beat real photo albums in cherishing memories, it’s an epic.

a letter – Believe it or not I’m still keeping all the letters that I received from highschool until now. I just love reading those letters over and over again as times goes by. That those words written in those letters are truly from their heart (i hope so, hehe).

a book – I have a lot of books already but since I’m planning to build my own little library in the future, I want to have more. I also love to read books specially inspirational and Bible-based books because there’s just so many things that I need to understand and I need some perceptions from mature people.

chocolates (i don’t care about the brand) – I find it really sweet when someone gave me chocolate (it’s not just about the courting stuff) and I don’t know why, maybe because I just love eating chocolates and it makes me happy.

As of now, I feel so blessed with whatever I have and I feel like I already have everything. Nothing I can ever ask for more because God have already given me the most precious Gift (JESUS) that I could have in my life. The enjoyment that I could experience in having those material possessions are just a little piece of what I’m going to have in the place He prepared for me 😀


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